Saturday, November 16, 2013

In the search of eternal love

The end of October was a very emotional moment for me. Why? Because I was moving on. Because I was leaving 15 years of my very Parisian life behind. And my dearest friends were not coming with me to live the new adventures at my side. Understandable as it is, it still felt like I was leaving too much behind.

So obviously, after I came back from Madagascar & before I left for Slovakia, I wanted to see as many of them as possible. My post-sickness fatigue was playing slightly against me but my lovely friends made the effort to meet me close to my home and I thank them deeply for that.

After spending time with my friends during those days, I realized that we were (and still are) all in search of the same thing. Indeed, we seek not. We expect it to come to us. The absolute love. As well as complete. The one that fills your nostrils and makes your head spin. The one that gets into your blood stream such a poison and makes your heart beat in a very powerful and exhilarating way. 

As we all want it very strongly and we are afraid that the person in question does not know it by his (or her) own intuition, we urge ourselves to tell them. Just to be clear, just so he or she knows. Yeah, it's less frightening to tell them than staying in the dark! And that is when (in general) the person in question flees. Why? Too much information. Too soon. Too fast. Maybe so. But when is it a good time for you? 

And that makes me think that human beings have become too complicated over time. We fall in awe of people that we do not (or only barely) know. We fantasize. And we idealize them in the fullest strength of this madness. When we do that, the person in front of us is perfect, he or she is at our perfect image. (That person, let me tell you - surely does NOT exist!) 

We forget that everyday life intervenes and we are tested. Every day. Tested to see if we can manage the "unexpected" without losing too much on the way. It is up to us to maintain the flame, the love, the joy and the respect. 

I love my friends. Deeply, à la folie. Distance isn't going to change big thing. I just hope not to suffer too much from the lack of not seeing them in the flesh.